Dear Evie and Fi,
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| You are my prde. My joy. |
Mama is not doing a good job with keeping this blog for you. When I look at the date on the last day I wrote a letter for you, it's been more than a year already! :( I am very sorry. I want to write you letters everyday. That is the desire of my heart. But most of the time, Mama gets caught up with so many things. Some important, some not so important, some not at all important.
I love you two so much. You are the blessings that give me joy everyday. You do not have any idea how much color you bring into my life.
Right now as I am writing this letter, you two are sitting in front of the TV watching Nickelodeon (Max & Ruby). And Evie, you just approached me asking for hot milk with oreos. Of course Mama will go and make you hot milk. Oh, so now you want chocolate chip cookie instead of an oreo? Now, you're letting me to choose between oreo and chocolate chip cookie. Well, excuse me for a little bit so I can make you hot milk and decide which cookie to give.
(3 minutes after)
So Evie, I decided to give you the oreo cookie. I thought, it's already opened, so better let you finish it. You mentioned chocolate chip cookie. Actually, those are not real chocolate chip cookies that your Dada baked last night. It's a "pretend" chocolate chip cookie. Two weeks ago, Dada found a "pretend chocolate chip cookies" to bake -- dairy-free. Until now, your allergic reaction to any food with dairy in it is still severe. I want you to eat the food we can eat and I am sorry that you can't eat a lot of those. I am also sorry that Mama is not religiously asking Jesus' help to heal your allergies. Mama needs to work on this. I need help on this. Can you help me? Maybe we should include this request when you pray before going to bed. Do you know that your prayer is very powerful? I believe that your prayer is the most special to God because it is asked with pure innocence, pure heart and without a doubt. Of course Mama will ask Jesus when she prays by herself.
For you Fi, I am very happy that finally you chose one of the three new sippy cups we got you for your milk. I started to get frustrated that you didn't want the change. You just wanted your precious, "soothing" bottle. Yesterday afternoon, you began to drink your milk in the sippy cup without a fuss. Hoorayyy!!!! That was a relief for Mama :) At the same time, I want you to know that there is a part of me that feels sad. I feel sad to accept the fact that you are no longer a baby. But you know what? You will always be my baby, you and Ate Evie. I am just sad that you are starting to be independent. I love taking care of you. I know I need breaks sometimes, but, I love attending to your needs more than taking a break. I am your Mom. I am wired by my Creator this way. Thank you for going a mile with me with your transition to a big girl's cup. It means a lot. This afternoon, I gave you juice in a different sippy cup and you chugged it down. You quenched your thirst from a different sippy cup!!! How awesome! :)
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| Finally, sippy cup that passes your standards. |
My girls, I know that I am doing a bad job with writing you letters as much as I could. But it does not end there and I am not going let it continue. I commit to write you letters everyday. Yes, everyday. Even if it's just one sentence or a word, I will devote a part of my 24 hours a day to say or tell you something. If circumstance does not allow me to post it online, I will do it offline and will post it on this blog when I can access online. This is going to be a challenge. This is going to be tough. I cannot do this alone. I need a divine help. I need my Father in heaven. I need Jesus.
I love you with all of me,
Mama
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